Well, I was actually hoping that no one would remember. Honestly, I didn’t want any celebration to occur. I confess that the delight and anticipation for my birthdate was dwarfed by my anxiety for the upcoming boards.
hohoho~ I actually thought to myself that I have no right to be merry or be cheerful at all, especially this early. That’s the primary reason why I wasn’t so excited to cause for a celebration.
Every time people try to ask me about my birthdate I just attempt a modest smile and politely look away. I initially try to deny if someone guesses the right date until someone said, “
Hindi kapasa sa board ang mag-tinikal!” I was caught off-guard with that statement and, of course, with nerves running through me I told them that it’s on the 28
th this month. The board exam is everything for me. It’s as if it’s between life and death, it’s everything or nothing at all. I have to and I need to pass.
Nevertheless, I believe in myself and my capacity.
So now that everybody knows ‘when’, the next questions are ‘where’ and ‘how’. [I was undeniably right!] Although it was obvious I have no escape. I offer no affirmation to their suggestions but a beam of shy grin.
Coincidentally, St. Jude Thaddeus’ feast is on the 28
th as well. So we went to church and pray to the patron of the desperate and the lost. Still hoping that their insistence would die a natural death. I told them that I’m bargaining for a sign if I was to treat them. But the sense of right and wrong streamed a bright light.
>.<
I gave in to their demand and we went to a local all-you-can eat buffet. Though to think that I could have bought a pair of jeans and shirt from a high-end store with the money I spent. I hope that somehow I imparted a humble amount of happiness to them.
This years’ celebration is different from the previous years. Nonetheless, I consider this a special one. Moreover, I would like to thank these people for surprising me on the eve of my birthday. Especially to those who came up with the idea. It was a first and it touched my heart. Thank you.
♥